From the the Joy diet. A book written by Martha Beck
I did this after the first time I read this chapter.
I wrote down thoughts and feelings.I think I have read this chapter too many times. Just to get the point of how this is to help me. In the past I was very truthful. And then found it better to say "Every thing is fine." Than to piss and moan. One of my past x friends told me most people really don't care and don't want to hear the truth. They only want to hear all is well with the world. Chit chat. Blah,Blah .
She even told her cousin to have her pity party at home. She did not want to hear any more.
"She has no compassion for others."
So I have spent a couple years now of brain washing my self to the point of happiness. I feel it and feel joy. I really believe I am happy. There is no reason to look at my life and say diffrent. As there are many with better & worse lives.
I have learned to live with the hand I am dealt.
I learn more every day to improve my life and make my self happy.
In this book "She calls this living behind a pain of glass"
Her questions for this chapter are.
What am I feeling?
What is the painful story I am telling?
Can I be sure my story is true"?
Is my story working?
Can I think of another story that might work better?
This chapter angers me.
Because I do not want to tell my self how I really feel any more.
I want to pretend all is well with the world.
And live happily ever after.
Now, I have to learn why this book angers me.
I am not the kind of person to get mad easy.
Every day now, I awake and think of new ways that I can see the truth deeper than before.
Like my life did not change when I moved here. It was just me morning the loss of where we were living. OK.
The changes hubby was going through, with his health.
The way I took all this personally. I chose to let it take over my life. Yes I did.
And this did, put me in the world of the lost.
This would have been a better book to read back then. Rather than now. As it is analyzing the past not the present. And I choose to live day by day now.
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Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.