Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Goodby 2009

This has been an awesome year, one that will be hard to top.
My road trip was the biggest goal reached on my bucket list.
But to complete my list by August was amazing.

For 2010 I will not make a list.
I will pick a word.
Since this year was full of fun, Laughter, creativity, joy. & love.
It will be hard to top.
So I will chose bliss, as my word for this year to come.
I have already started cleaning out my brain.
Now all I have to do is put it to work.
I have released ego, negativity and put my inner critic out of a job.
So that life will be blissful.
Inner peace is bliss.
Every day I will find a way to make life more blissful.
My eyes will be open to all the beauty in the world.
I will continue finding joy by.
Creating an art filled life. & loving my family and the world.

May you all find bliss.

I know today is a full moon, but I need to invite more of the sun into my life this year too. Because I am a night owl.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Merry moments.

My wish for this holiday session, has all ready came through.
It is love.
And that is what we are celebrating this year.
Not Christmas but Light and love.

If you click on the photo below. You can see Dylan's soul is on fire with love.
The look in his eyes and a serene glow about him.
He is a child who is normally full of negative energy.
But tonight I see bliss.
What a gift.

Last night we had a little bit of holiday cheer.
Jeremy is with us for the winter break.
And Dylan is going to spend time with his mom.
So he will not be here Friday.
I am amazed by his change, the look in his eye when he opened his gift.
The telescope was like awesome to him.
I think we had a moment of love and acceptance.
It to me was like he now sees that I am his Grandma too.
As he is Jozlyns brother, but to me he is family.
I treat him no different than any of the other kids.
But my gift from him was a real hug.
The look in his eyes tell s his story.
I am loved.
That so warmed my heart to see this in him.
So that was my gift from him.
Where Jeremy is always love. and a joy to be around.

May you all be loved.
That is my wish.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Venting negative energy

I so hope you do not mind me sharing this here.
Please do not allow this story to bring you down, Or feel sorry for me. As this is temporary and will go away.
I share this in hope of helping my self and others.

When a situation is shared, like what I went through with my daughter the other day.

I chose to let what is happening in her life affect my life.
I thought I released it in the art work I did.
I vented to a friend and my other daughter.
But I let her negative situation hurt me. I have so little energy today.
I am trying to recover from shingles. This is the worst thing that has happen to me.
As it was so many days of sleep18-20 hours a day. pain and itch.
I think my amune system is not working.
But this is all a result of letting problems become my life. Rather than separate my life from the problem.
I was getting very good at just listening to my daughter.
And realizing it was not my life, but hers.
But that Mother instinct is stronger than me. When some one is hurting your child. you want to take control, protect them, etc.
The result is all the negative energy has damaged me. I was not strong enough physically to handle it.
It is only been 2 years of mental recovery for me. Working on regaining my mental health. I am very strong mentally now. But physical health is very hard to recover from.

I wish I had learned many years ago to deal with problems. To understand they are all temporary. And will go away. . I let worry. fear, morning, pre assumptions, control my life. They basically destroyed my life.
But this story has a good ending. I will recover. I will not let this hurt me any more.
You have to think positive to be positive.
You have to replace all negative thoughts, with gratitude.
Every day I look for something to be grateful for. .I can receive feeling of bliss from a beautiful sun set.
My goal for next year is bliss. with every thing and every one.
As this year I found joy, laughter, and happiness. with life.

Thank you for letting me share my heart here today.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Angel in disguise

In this world we live in, there is beauty every where we look.
We some times forget that there is beauty in every person we meet too.
A simple smile
a simple hello.
You may never know.
That person that just walked by.
May have been an
Angel in disguise.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Friday, December 18, 2009

Digital collage

I have been working on digital collages

It has been quite fun to do. .
There seems to be white stuff sprinkling down out side right now.
I have been calling it dandruff, I refuse to believe it is snow.
I was hoping for 60-70 degrees year round.
But I assume Santa did not get my letter this year.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

What do you wish to give?

This is the question Jamie asks today.

I would like to give my heart to the world.
Share my art and knowledge to help others.
Most of all give and receive friendship.
A smile
And a virtual hug

This is what I would like to give to you my friend.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

A full week

Of virtual gifts for you

This last 2, I just did with a trial version of Art rage 3
it is $55.00 to up grade to this. A tolal of $85.00 .
I like it but not sure I want to spend this amount more.
The quality is better

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Another Angel Gets Its Wings

There's an angel in us all
A little voice inside that answers every call
There's a joyous sound resounding in your heart
A ray of hope that shines as bright as any star


For each and every bell that rings
Another angel gets his wings
So show you care and share your light
And help an angel fly tonight

An act of kindness, a tender smile
These little blessings seem to make it all worth while
So try and do what's ringing true inside your heart
by Trisha Yearwood
I did this virtual painting last night there are lots of hidden faeries a a few other thing to find . This is my gift to you today.

Thelma Louise Shanks
In 1976 she became my God mother, when I decided to become a Catholic.
She was my best friends mom, and lived around the corner from me. I received a call today from Karen, my friend and her daughter. She said "her mom passed Dec 7. 09, and her husband is on life support. He had stents put in and something went wrong." So my friend is deeply suffering at this time.
She need some healing energy sent her way.
And I light a candle for her Mom . Photobucket
I will miss her Mom but I am so glad she is no longer suffering from colin cancer.
I do believe she has her wings and is free to fly.
She was an Angel here on earth as well. All her life she took care of people. She raised her 3 kids, 2 grandsons and took care of her mom, who is now age 97. She was 70. And such a loving, kind soul.
She will be missed.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Sunday, December 13, 2009

When your cup runneth over

When your cup runneth over and list get over whelming with.
things to do
places to be
people to see
presents to buy
lights to untangle
and so on.
remember I am siting here in my comfy lazy boy
Thinking of you.
Enjoy a hot cup of cocoa, put your feet up and relax!
This only happens once a year.

This is an article I found in my local paper.
She write about loneliness and how to deal with it.
She uses information from a book written By
Norman Vincent Peale
I think I have every book he has written.
You should click on the photo to enlarge.
if it is not big enough for you to read. right click on the enlargement and save to your computer to enlarge more.
It would be wonderful if all the lonely people were invited to christmas with others who care about them.

I did the art work on it.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Saturday, December 12, 2009

virtual gift 12

Todays virtual gift is the Santa Jr in New Mexico painting, He is having such fun dancing while the lizard is running around the house.
I don't know why I did this but it turned out great. I like things that are not normal.
click to enlarge.
And a video I found . I am going to start learning to do this form a of yoga from it. I think I am capable of doing most of it. This is a great lession and 50.25 minutes long.

Introduction to Kundalini Yoga
PhotobucketHave a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Your room mate

Yet most of us ask it.
The other day at Google library, I was reading a preview of a book called
The Untethered Soul By Michael A. Singer,
Here is a excerpt.
"To attain true inner freedom, you must be able to objectively watch your problems, instead of being lost in them.
No solution can exist ,while you are lost in the energy of a problem.
There is a part of your being that can let go of your melodrama.
You start by taking a seat and watch what is going on in your head.
You could say you have a room mate.
Quiet your mind.
Just sit there and listen to the chatter.

Why am I doing this . There is no one here but me.

See there is your room mate.

Basically your not alone in there, There are 2 distinct aspects of your inner being. The first is you. the awareness , the witness, the center of your willful intentions, and the other is that which never shuts up. if you could get rid of that part, even for a moment. the peace and serenity would be the nicest vacation you have ever had. "

Your room mate can ruin any thing at a drop of a hat. I don't want to be here. I don't want to do this. blah blah blah. My words lol"
Your inner room mate finds something wrong with every thing.
Once you decide this inner voice is ruining your life. You are ready for transformation.
This voice is like sitting on top of a volcano ready to erupt.My life is a mess just because this thing that lives in here with me has to make a melodrama out of every thing.
Once you have seen this, and learn to no longer identify with your roommate your ready to free yourself."
After reading this paragraph I was hooked. It was like a light bulb went on in my head. I knew it was time to put duct tape on the mouth of this voice, I named the master.
But I think it has helpers too. The risk taker, the fool. party hearty Marty, some have the old goat, who is so stubborn they fights with there self.

I also am looking at life differently now.
In chapter 2 , He asked the question who are you?
Mom, wife grandma, friend. This is just a list of names people can call me.
It is not me.
School, Job, organizations. Are thing I did, they are not me.
What I conclude is I am a soul occupying a body.
I believe I am here to learn and teach.
As a kid I was unaware of my learning ability.
I went though life as it presented it's self.
I was not taught to make choices.
But some how I learned things the hard way.
My choices were not always right.
I allowed problems to consume my life.
When in reality, they came and went. And there is always a new one.
So now I have learned to not take them personally.
I deal with them and let them go as quick as possible.
I chose to no longer let them control me.
I have thought of writing a book.
It would have instructions on choosing a happy life.
As kids we are not taught to be happy.
We either are or are not.
We are told to pursue it. But happiness is not a person place or thing. It is an emotion, we already possess it. All we have to do is choose to use it. Laugh, smile. Love, enjoy.
We have no clue, that at any time we could choose to.
No matter where we are.
Every thing is a matter of choice.
Choose happy, fun, responsible, let go of things, or keep them as part of our life.
So let go of things you do not like, and embrace what you love.

PhotobucketHave a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.