Friday, October 14, 2011

Turning a new leaf

I have just came to the conclusion.

I am not a witch with a bee.

I  have just became brutally honest.
I will no longer be a door mat for any one.
I am still nice , loving and caring.
But no longer will I be used. degraded, or abused. By any one.
I will honestly tell you straight up with out fear.
What you may or may not want to hear.
Hay that rhymes. :)
But there is no reason to be weak out of fear.
Because if they do not respect me the way that I am.
That tells me they do not know the meaning of unconditional LOVE.
If some one can not be told the truth. Then you do not need them in your life.
It seems like we go through all kids of challenges and tests in our life time. And we have the choice to be or play the roll of the victim. Or we have the choice to dust our self off and say.
I SURVIVED. And I will not let it happen again.
Some things are simply lessons learned. 
But I feel we are here to conquer our fears.
Learn to let go of what we could call baggage.

And looking back on my life, I think I can now say" I pass." I have forgiven every one including my self. And yet, I have the experience and knowledge to not fall for some things again. But I hope there are no knew challenges to overcome. Sure there will be loss of loved ones. Accidents etc. But I now accept the fact this is all apart of life. Some people have what looks like an easy path to walk. But,  I know there are few people in this world that can say. I never had a problem. But there are also many people who can say there is no easy road for them. So I am happy to be one of the lucky ones to have had a balance, both what can be called good or bad. And I can now say" I am grateful now for both." 

And I can not get over how free I have became.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.


Gail said...

You have conquered much and are very wise.

I can hear the confidence in your writing...way to go!

Ramesh Sood said...

Well, Grammy, keep on moving forward..tough or smooth.. roads teach..always.... God bless!! RS

angela said...

so happy you are in a good place, blessed be my friend

white_lilly said...

Good on you Ernie, this is a fallen world and there is no smooth sailing in life. Thanks for dropping by on my blog, I have been busy as usual and have been neglecting my favorite blogs. Take care and thanks for sharing with us.