Thursday, February 24, 2011


Oh my word, what now
Grammy will do many things
To make you smile, laugh

FOR Sunday postcard art.
And my words for
Haiku my heart Friday
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day 2 of crying

This morning started out with a call from the building inspector. He pushed me toward coming right over to inspect my home. I was like can we not do baby steps. I will apply for a dry wall permit. As now they require one. But he then asked me if I was afraid of him or his position. I said position. He said some things I felt were hurtful. Like can you not get up and turn a screw to secure the switch on the wall. Or ? That belittled me. As in I hurt my self every time I use the drill. He threatened me by his words. Do you not want to make your house safe enough for your grand kids to be able to come back over. My mind hit the roof. My kids are not an issue here. No one said any thing to that affect.

Tessa was able to go get her son back today. The ploy of his dad to keep him did not work. He was mad. But he is still trying to get a restraining order to keep my daughter away from him. And go for custody. As this is all about him not wanting to pay child support. He did this before and it was throw out of court. He had Cullen for like 6 months. Then he gave him back with no obligation for support on his part.

But I was doing really well keeping it together from yesterdays post. When I heard Hi Grammy in this sweet soft voice on the other end of the phone. A dam broke tears flooded from my eyes. My heart broke is is full of pain. All this man accomplished was to give me the threat of some one ruling my life and home.

I found a number for the div of aged for MO P&A provides assistance to individuals with disabilities.
I have gotten to the point I feel I need some one to help me. I spoke to hubby about it and he said he too felt like something is going on in his stomach. And he jumps every time he hears a noise like a car door. It is paranoia. We both feel like we are at war.
With some one who want to violate our space.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I just want to cry

Jamie asks us today *What Do You Wish For Your Home?*
I wish people would let me live in peace at my home.

My life has been so full of trauma and drama, I do not know how much more I can take. The father of one of grandson's decided to try legally kidnapping Cullen today. He still has possession of the child but he made sure to destroy my life. He not only called dfs. But the city inspector. We are in no danger for having kids here. But the inspector. Has decided if we do not let him in to do a complete inspection of our home, He is just going to condemn our house. And have it torn down. I called an attorney and he has no knowledge of how to deal with this other than cooperate with them. He said it would cost me more than my house is worth to fight them.
So I have to find a way of not being raped by the government again.I fought them in St. Louis and won. Thanks to me. Breckenridge hills, can no longer enter your home and inspect with out a warrant.This was an area and still is one that did not require occupancy permits. Now I have to submit to inspection.Or loose my home. This is why so many senior citizens are displaced and put in nursing homes. Because some one can come in and disrupt there life. All I have are uncompleted repairs. I need dry wall in the living room. And this in no way endangers the life of any one. But he can come in and wants to inspect every thing. There are not many homes up to boca codes. This is the house paw kettle watched his kids build.
So I have a choice of moving or submission.
I am to the point of walking away. I now know why so many with Ptsd are homeless. No one can tell you how to live in your card board box.

I have made plenty of jokes today to maintain my sanity. I said I an going to stand on a street corner with a sign saying homeless thanks to Eldon. Or ????? I have many things that I can not put in print. But I am so tired of lack of freedom. This is America right! Lets evict every one in a log cabin for not having dry wall.
Arrest every one who don't mow there grass. I do mow mine. But there is a law in the town I use to live in. That if you mow your grass and it hits the street there is a $500.00 fine. People get paid to make rules. And we elect them to punish us. I am sick and tired of control.
I moved here and got permits for the electric and roof. That was all that was required of me.
I feel like renting a back hoe. And pushing my house over. I feel VIOLATED BEYOND REPAIR.
At least in St. Louis I had access to competent legal help.Here no one ever had to fight city hall before. So no one has the experience. Or they are there lawyer already.
I feel like where is habitat for humanity.
Where is the home make over show .
Where is any one who helps the helpless.

Thank you for listing to me vent.
I wish I could live in peace, free of problems.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Friday, February 18, 2011

Faces in the sky

Yes, I do feel you
I can see you watch over me
My heart is floating

Through the clouds we fly
Our soul has wings yet we fret
See, I know not why

Are you just a dream
I see your smile in the clouds
I can feel your love

Looking over you
My heart smiles full of great joy
Dreaming of rainbows

What words come to you from this image?

This is my postcard and words for both
Haiku my Heart Friday
Sunday postcard art.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Monday, February 14, 2011


I love it! The sun rose in a glory of color.
The temp was over 50f 10c yesterday
I would say more than 2 feet= (60 centimetres.) of snow melted
Today will be over 50f again, so maybe we will see grass again through the window.
Crash is here today along with me to wish you all.
A beautiful day!
Update: the snow is melting!

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Love me : )Meow !

I feel for your cry
We both need attention to
live each day with love

Lost and alone thinking
You fell for me in the past
will my love ever last

My hearts been falling
I am the cat who loves you
I long for embrace

This is my Haiku Friday entry.
What words do these images say to you?
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Todays fun : )

We are having a heat wave today. 9f this morning and 2f tonight. School is canceled again today as we have more snow falling. But these little guys were so much fun to watch out of the front window.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Sunday, February 6, 2011

For Ramesh

Ramesh with his flock
At his home ever one gets along
Peace love joy and more

I did these 2 images for Ramesh
They are inspired by his words below.

Ah, visit of angels
My thoughts roll out a rainbow
Happy colors greet


Angels look in awe
Sublime colors offer peace
Aren’t they already home


Deer , goats and sheep
Dance in frenzy around King
Unwell lion skips meal...

Please stop by his place at

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket

Friday, February 4, 2011

Haiku my heart

SteamPunk Inspired postcard
This was quite fun to do.
I created this card for Sunday postcard Art
I painted the background, and added digitally created images.
And so had to write a Haiku for it.

Forever day dreaming
Bringing the sun shine with you
live laugh love have fun!

What words come to you from the collage I did this week ?

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.Photobucket