Grandkid withdraw

It has been since 2004, that I could call myself an Empty Nester. Sure we had youngest daughter move in for a few months. About 2 years ago. But I have been spoiled with having the first born grandson. On most weekend. And almost all summer last year. Now that he is a teenager. I have had to experience real emptynest syndrome. This past school year we did not get him much at all. It was so lonely with out him. And I did not feel the loss of my own kids as much as I have felt his presents missed. I am amazed by how a grandchild can grab your heart like no other.  I feel better now that he was with us last week end.

And yesterday my youngest and her 2 sons came for an over night visit. 

Hubby actually did a bit of running after them with a water gun. 

His inner child was out playing.

We hope to have more contact with them. But this set of kids live 2 hours away.

This day marks day 1 of youngest daughter journey as a now single mom of 2.

She is officially now divorced.   

And this is a good thing.to finally happen.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Who will be replaced

The race is on Scotty jr will loose his title of youngest grand kid.
But will it be him who will be replaces as youngest boy

Or will Jozlyn loose her title as the only girl.

Hum
You guessed it.
A new baby.
Amy is due on Halloween.
So we may have an enchanted grandchild.
Or Amy may have to share her birthday on Now 1 with a new baby.
What a birthday present. LOL
I hope to be blogging again soon.
I have been buried in farmville at face book, since my return from Texas.
That trip hit home for me.
To loose a spouse is traumatic.
There is so much in common with my friend as far as her last few years with her hubby.
But I am so thankful that my life was completely diffrent than the one she had.
No one has a perfect life.
But I can now look back and feel blessed.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Lifes ups and downs.

In the past I would let every problem take over and become my life.
I am so thankful now, that I am learning to deal with each one and let them go.
When it comes to your child that is a bit harder. I still feel her pain. But I can keep telling my self it happened to her not to me. My job it to adviser her. And not to take over and try to fix them. She has to learn to deal with the hand she is dealt.
Her latest issue is a house fire.

We have her baby here with Amy. No one was in the home at the time so no one was hurt.
This is the first time I have ever stayed home and sent hubby and Amy to help her. I was on the phone. But I am not well enough for the 3.5 hour drive each way. I keep wondering if I am being judged. As Hubby is not use to being the one to do any thing. This is all a new adventure for him. It is like I am still in control. but he is doing the physical part.
But what I see now is they all need to learn to do things with out me. I need to retire from control. I will advise if needed. But I can no longer be the one making choices for others.
Hubby don't understand why we do not have the kids. But I can not care for my self. So how can I care for some one else. So Cullen is with his dad. And Amy is fine with 2 baby's. and there 2 older ones.
No one realizes I am physically broken. I do not want pity , just understanding. I am not lazy. I am disabled. I hope this will go away.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Happy New year!

Jozlyn is baby New Year 2010 for Miller Co. Mo.
The Eldon Advertiser picked her because she was the first born in this area in 2009.
She will be 1 on Jan 7, can you believe it has been a year almost.
Time is flying.
I send you all a virtual hug and kiss.
May your year be full of bliss.
Your cups runneth over.
And I send you a 4 leaf clover.

I received a Christmas gift from Gail too.

She sent me these beautiful note cards. She took the photo of the frosty rose too.
They are so beautiful. Thank you Gail.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Merry moments.

My wish for this holiday session, has all ready came through.
It is love.
And that is what we are celebrating this year.
Not Christmas but Light and love.

If you click on the photo below. You can see Dylan's soul is on fire with love.
The look in his eyes and a serene glow about him.
He is a child who is normally full of negative energy.
But tonight I see bliss.
What a gift.

Last night we had a little bit of holiday cheer.
Jeremy is with us for the winter break.
And Dylan is going to spend time with his mom.
So he will not be here Friday.
I am amazed by his change, the look in his eye when he opened his gift.
The telescope was like awesome to him.
I think we had a moment of love and acceptance.
It to me was like he now sees that I am his Grandma too.
As he is Jozlyns brother, but to me he is family.
I treat him no different than any of the other kids.
But my gift from him was a real hug.
The look in his eyes tell s his story.
I am loved.
That so warmed my heart to see this in him.
So that was my gift from him.
Where Jeremy is always love. and a joy to be around.

May you all be loved.
That is my wish.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Venting negative energy

I so hope you do not mind me sharing this here.
Please do not allow this story to bring you down, Or feel sorry for me. As this is temporary and will go away.
I share this in hope of helping my self and others.

When a situation is shared, like what I went through with my daughter the other day.

I chose to let what is happening in her life affect my life.
I thought I released it in the art work I did.
I vented to a friend and my other daughter.
But I let her negative situation hurt me. I have so little energy today.
I am trying to recover from shingles. This is the worst thing that has happen to me.
As it was so many days of sleep18-20 hours a day. pain and itch.
I think my amune system is not working.
But this is all a result of letting problems become my life. Rather than separate my life from the problem.
I was getting very good at just listening to my daughter.
And realizing it was not my life, but hers.
But that Mother instinct is stronger than me. When some one is hurting your child. you want to take control, protect them, etc.
The result is all the negative energy has damaged me. I was not strong enough physically to handle it.
It is only been 2 years of mental recovery for me. Working on regaining my mental health. I am very strong mentally now. But physical health is very hard to recover from.

I wish I had learned many years ago to deal with problems. To understand they are all temporary. And will go away. . I let worry. fear, morning, pre assumptions, control my life. They basically destroyed my life.
But this story has a good ending. I will recover. I will not let this hurt me any more.
You have to think positive to be positive.
You have to replace all negative thoughts, with gratitude.
Every day I look for something to be grateful for. .I can receive feeling of bliss from a beautiful sun set.
My goal for next year is bliss. with every thing and every one.
As this year I found joy, laughter, and happiness. with life.

Thank you for letting me share my heart here today.
Namaste
E
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

I did it!

This was my first time on the trampoline.
It was a beautiful day. The sun was shining and we enjoyed it to the fullest.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Trick or treat

Look I had a treat at my door tonight.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

It's almost that time

To walk

Time seems to be flying.
Jozlyn is 9 month and Jeremy turned 10 last Friday.
Today Jeremy will be in a school play.
Tom Sawyer
I think it is a boy named Bill he is playing.
So this will be a blast.


I am finally learning my photo shop elements v6
I did this scrap book page with it.
I have v7 too,it is not easy to use. I still love my Adobe photo deluxe version 4.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Today was awesome!

This was defiantly a bucket list day.
Yes that is a real alligator.

We were at the Antique tractor show in Eldon.
It is held every year at Jozlyns great grandparents home.
This gator is a pet for one of the vendors.
This is the 2nd time we have seen this guy. , we first saw it 4 years ago.
The people take really good care of it.

This is how we started off our day.
We went to the strip in the Lake of the Ozarks area, and took a short helicopter ride.
The video was taken from the front seat by grandson Jeremy.
It was an early Birthday present for Jeremy,

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

With all this fun I forgot to do my first post on the Joy diet. So I will have to wait till next Friday. Oops.

Family Fun

Tessa , my youngest came for a visit yesterday.
Little Scott has milk bumps. But is growing like a weed.
Cullen is so happy with his new little brother.

Cheep E has desided to go into the hair grooming business.

S/He thought Tessa's hair looked like a bird nest.
So rearrangement was necessary.

This is Crash my cat and cheep E the chicken, Neither know they are not human.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. - George Bernard Shaw

A Sea of pink

I just love the mass of flowers that bloom this time of year.

(Amaryllis) Lycorus sqamigera
Its common names: Surprise Lily, Magic Lily, and Resurrection Lily. It is also sometimes referred to as Naked Lady.

But it is also a sign that fall is near.

My tomatoes are the largest I have ever had.
But only 1 has been ripe this is the 2nd one so far.
This summer temperatures are some what cool.
So every thing is way behind

My first corn is in.

This is cheep E. 10 days old today.

This chick is part Cuckoo Maran

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. - George Bernard Shaw