The eagles have landed

Hubby and I went to bagnel dam on the Osage river side yesterday.
It started off a bit like last year.
Hubby had a negative attitude.
There not here!
This time I did not let him bother me.
I said thats ok. The gulls are at play and its a nice day.
Hay that rimes. LOL
So we get in the truck and drive toward the boat launch area.
And I say stop look in the tree.
So we look. Ah there is an eagle. hehehe. Yes!
We dive a bit farther I say look.
We stop. Its just a blue heroin.
That was diffrent I never seen them in hiding before.
Normally there dive bombing the water. Or standing.

Then we reach the boat ramp area. We look across the river and there is another one by the VFW hall. We have a guy come up to us and ask about my camera. And he shows me his. A couple more guys come over. The oldest one heres me say my Sony bought out Minolta. All my 35mm Minolta lens's fit on this Sony. He sad he had the his first Minolta back in the 50's, when he was in the military stationed in Japan. He took some really wonderful photos of Marilyn Monroe. Then his son said he has the photos now. We had a wonderful time talking to them.
So then, I said lets go to the VFW. So there they were in person 2 eagles
We walked right up and under the tree. I even got a butt shot. It looked like he was saying. A little closer please. I was not that dumb. I did not want to be pooped on by an eagle. Yuk!
Hubby had the Kodak easy share and could not get a photo to save his life. He could not see them in the screen. He then took off with my camera. He caught the one take off in flight. it was half a bird. But the next 2 was good shots. My camera is working ok, on the 75-200 mm lens. But will not focus on the other one.
After this hubby said next time I am going to pick out my own camera. I want to look through the hole like a regular camera. I told him it is quite allot of money like mine to get that feature. I asked did you like the camera the guy over there had. He said maybe. So we stopped at a pawn shop on the way to Walmart. And there was one like the guy had for $139.99 used. He thought is was ok. They would only go down 10% and it did not have every thing with it. So we went on to walmart. There was a new one that was 10 mp. for 189. It was the last one. So I asked about it and she gave me 10 % off. Same warranty. So I got hubby his own camera. Now lets see if he uses it. It would be awesome, if he takes an interest in any thing other than tv. So this may be the answer to get hubby off the couch. Yes my year of bliss may happen.
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Venting negative energy

I so hope you do not mind me sharing this here.
Please do not allow this story to bring you down, Or feel sorry for me. As this is temporary and will go away.
I share this in hope of helping my self and others.

When a situation is shared, like what I went through with my daughter the other day.

I chose to let what is happening in her life affect my life.
I thought I released it in the art work I did.
I vented to a friend and my other daughter.
But I let her negative situation hurt me. I have so little energy today.
I am trying to recover from shingles. This is the worst thing that has happen to me.
As it was so many days of sleep18-20 hours a day. pain and itch.
I think my amune system is not working.
But this is all a result of letting problems become my life. Rather than separate my life from the problem.
I was getting very good at just listening to my daughter.
And realizing it was not my life, but hers.
But that Mother instinct is stronger than me. When some one is hurting your child. you want to take control, protect them, etc.
The result is all the negative energy has damaged me. I was not strong enough physically to handle it.
It is only been 2 years of mental recovery for me. Working on regaining my mental health. I am very strong mentally now. But physical health is very hard to recover from.

I wish I had learned many years ago to deal with problems. To understand they are all temporary. And will go away. . I let worry. fear, morning, pre assumptions, control my life. They basically destroyed my life.
But this story has a good ending. I will recover. I will not let this hurt me any more.
You have to think positive to be positive.
You have to replace all negative thoughts, with gratitude.
Every day I look for something to be grateful for. .I can receive feeling of bliss from a beautiful sun set.
My goal for next year is bliss. with every thing and every one.
As this year I found joy, laughter, and happiness. with life.

Thank you for letting me share my heart here today.
Namaste
E
Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

Artistic Fun

Hubby finally picked up the swing I bought last Friday
Today
I washed it with fine steal wool.
And applied a gray primer.

Then I took a nap. I seem to be getting sick. Sinus congestion and fatigue.
Tonight I did a couple of pages in my art journal.
I found a comic in the paper that is just right for how I feel today.
Tired.
Then for balance
I added the hope side.
As there is always hope. This it temporary and will go away.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

A deeper look at life

I am very guilty of going though life and visually over look most if not all my surroundings.As you can see from the first photo All I saw was a flower till I uploaded the photo. Then there appeared a bug. Upon a closer view it reminded me of a crab with pincher's. I went back for a closer look with my camera. It then had a bee in its grasp.

I have never seen a Crab spider till today.

Misumena vatia Link to more info on Crab spiders or flower spider

But this story is meant to be more than just over looking bugs.
We some times over look people too.
I have been in line standing next to a friend and neither of us seen each other, till my hubby said is that not ?
Yep it was.
Then there was a time My daughter and I were at a restaurant and there was a girl there that was very upset.
My youngest daughter had no tolerance for her.
As she knew her type and dismissed her as a person on drugs coming down.
My self I saw a person with a problem deeper than drugs.
I went and talker to her and found she had a very bad night.
I offered to take her to the hospital or suggested she go on her own.
It helped her just to talk it out with me and decide what was best for her.
Both my daughter and a friend said I was stupid. And was putting my self in danger.
I saw my self as keeping her from going to jail. As her anger was increasing by the minute. She threw a coffee cup to the floor. This was not as bad as she could have been. If she were left along to fume.
As we left I told the waitress to keep her coffee filled up.
Be nice to her. And leaver her alone.
I gave them $5,00
And said tell her her coffee was free.
Thanks to looking deeper. I hope this made a difference in her life.
I am not telling this story to brag.
I am sharing it in hope of others looking deeper at not only strangers. But at your own family.
There are times we do not look at there actions to know they are in pain.

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. - George Bernard Shaw

Feed The good one

"One evening an old Cherokee man told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, "Dear boy, the battle is between the two 'wolves' that exist inside us all.

One is Evil.
It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good.
It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee replied,
"The one you feed.

Arther unknown

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. - George Bernard Shaw

Play to pass my day

Come sit on my couch and enjoy the ride.
For we are off to find the tide.

To paint a picture with words is an art form that not many possess.
The pen is the paint . The paper a canvass. The words are ART.

Some can write with poetic rhymes.
Neither rhyme nor reason is needed as long as the words sing.
They need to envelop your thoughts.
Details that flows and captures your mind are the best kind.
For I love to open a book and swallow it whole.
I can envision a place with detail and grace.
A magical story, a historic tail.
Oh but what about a whale ?
Did we fail. to set sail ?

Will it need to make since? Or just entertain my brain. Hum !

It must take hold and grab me right away.
That amazing story, will only take one day.
If it rambles ,it is not for me today.
It must take you to the stars and back in a snap.
Is it a faerie tale or a book of scary thoughts. A biography or a fantasy?

Magic is in all words that take hold of your thoughts. As long as the story flows. Who knows where you may go. A trip to the sea and day's in the mountains.
Far away lands, near by country side. Let your mind slide, on a snow bank. Maybe float on a cloud till you drift off to sleep. Oh what calm and peace.
Where will this go. I may never know. It rambles and rimes and kills time.
But it may make since some day for now it is just play to pass my day.
Grammy E


Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. - George Bernard Shaw

My brain has a hard drive.

Last night I started out saying hi to some of you. I clicked on a link to another person in some ones comments to see there blog, this led me to This amazing painting of a St. Petersburg cathedral in Russia I was in Awe ! All the detail. All the craftsmanship. As I looked at the photo of the painting , I thought," I would love to see this in person. I love art. I love the Victorian days of detail". I forgot that way back then Europe is full of detail. I had no Ideal Russia would go to the top of my list as a place I would love to see. So I took a virtual vacation to this this country last night. I so enjoyed it.The painting and photos both touched my soul. And left me in a state of enlightenment.

After looking at great photos for hours on the link below. I had to stop.
All this started my brain working over time.

I had to write all this down as my brain is like a computer it loves input. I love to learn. But I must need to defrag my brains hard drive to organize my thoughts. Then a disk clean up to get rid of my corrupted files. Then I thought , My brain needs an external hard drive as I keep loosing my floppies.. I can just use floppy disk to store negative thoughts and problems." I don't mind loosing them at all". But If I start writing things down for safe keeping. Maybe, I will have a great operating system. As in my brain will then be good again.
I wish I had this desire as a kid. I was in 10 th grade and so loved art. I went to visit the graphic arts class at North Co tech. I loved it but "It was not the type of art I wanted to explore then". I went a week each to diffrent classes. And I assume this helped me to be eclectic I could use both my head and body back then. I had a week in Auto mechanics. "I rebuilt a 350 engine block". I liked using the sand blaster the most. to smooth out the valves or ? don't remember what.This was a form of artistic craftsmanship I took a week in small electronics. A week in Airframe and power mechanics. "I did not get to do any thing but watch in that class". I was in small engine. And of all the classes I went to visit "I picked Offset lithography". It was mechanical, artistic, use of cameras & photo development, printing, bindery . It offered a bit of what I thought I wanted to learn . But I never used this to earn a living. As I always made more money in sales or management. Only 1 person in our class made a living and stayed with it .

I was lucky I had the ability to teach too. My oldest Amy was a book worm it was read me this. My grandson Jeremy is like this too. But in high school Amy exceeded the master. She took college level calculus in the 11 th grade. She came home with an attitude of "where do I go for help if I am smarter than in one here?" Her teacher was not a teacher but a person who said do it. So it was the first class she ever failed. When she went to collage though. Where she did not fail. She had good teachers. And she did well. As she was hired as a chemical engineer with out going to chem tech. She passed all the test that was required of her to know to get the job.

So I guess I accomplished something in this life. I have looked for the answer to" What is my purpose ?" "Why am I here?" So I need to find the answers.
"What will they say at my funeral?"
"I have always had a problem with being called a house wife. I prefer Unemployed. Retired. Lazy. lol ??"

I am a empty nester, wife, parent, now a grandparent, a friend, a teacher and eclectic..Not necessarily in that order.
I worked when I was capable. And some how I can solve other peoples problems. But not always my own.

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Link to awesome detailed photos of Russia's palace's and etc.
Photo from wickpedia

The church was built between 1883 and 1907 and was officially called the Resurrection of Christ Church (a.k.a. The Church of Our Savior on Spilled Blood), By looking at the awesome photos in this Link to detailed photos of the church. I had no ideal it was so new. The construction of the church was almost entirely funded by the Imperial family and thousands of private donations.
The church was built on the spot where Emperor Alexander II was assassinated in March 1881 by a group of revolutionaries, who threw a bomb at his royal carriage.
click on photo to see more from wickpedia

Inspirational art

I found these on photo bucket. A place to share web graphics and photos.

I love photos like this. It makes winter disappear in your mind.when you look at this wonderful creation .It wakes up your imagination. I would love to be in the photo. It is like a dream world. But It has to be in Arizona to have smoke in the chimney and flowers around the lake. The only thing that would make this better it to have the waterfall flowing. That would be even more tranquil to look at. I am in awe of how graphics are made to move. I have never learned this skill but would love to. I find it good to have positive happy things around you to make your atmosphere happy or calm. I was thinking wildlife was missing in the photo. But that could be firefly's sparkling on the water.



And this is so cute.
You know there is a bear in there sleeping.
It looks like a magic forest. With filtered light or wind.
Or could it also be fireflies?
These graphics represent every thing I love in the environment. Water, wildlife, nature and a calm beauty. Along with a little bit of fun.



What do these graphics inspire in you?

Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

THANKFUL THURSDAY.6

I am so thankful for the sky's above and the world below.
The air that we breath . Food and water that sustains us. And a home with some heat.

The love of family and friends.

I am so thankful I am on the path to happiness, joy, and laughter.

I am thankful for our new family member Jozlyn Rose. Our first Granddaughter.

I am thankful for all my blog friends. They lighten my heart. And fill it with love & joy.

I am thankful I met
Fr Wade on myspace
He now shares video of his service in Lakeland Fl.

I have learned from him there is more than 1 form of the catholic religion. And his way I have never seen before. It is well worth a look at his videos you will be pleasantly surprised. Link

I am thankful for my new positive attitude.
and knowledge popping in my head that I can share to help others. And If I forget I can just look it up.

My life now includes limericks. Thanks to Gail.

I can already tell, this year is going to be the best yet.



If you would like to share your thankful heart click on the T T photo



Have a wonderful day and remember to laugh and play.

My thoughts on lemons

When I put up the video below.
At first it was to make you laugh, and start your day with joy. But then the more I read your comments and saw your views. This message jumped in my head. I looked at the video as a lesions in life.

We feed on bitterness and learn to except it as part of our life. We feed it to our kids and they follow in our foot steps. When really we have a choice to not eat a lemon. When it comes our way we can just say no.
And choose to make our life sweet.
How do you like my words of wisdom. My brain is finally working on a positive note again. It is good to laugh at the funny faces, Because laughter is healthy for the body, Mind an soul.

Thanks for joining me on my mission to be happy and filled with joy this year. I am winning the battle with winter blues. Like a child I have visions of flowers and composts in my head. Veggies growing in there bed. I have spring fever and yet the wind chill will be below zero tonight. Burr, I not only need a fire in my head but one in the house.As for our mouse. He is on his own. And needs a new home.


Image & video from photo bucket.

Have a wonderful day and remember to play

Lemonade And laughs

When fate hands you a lemon, make lemonade."(Dale Carnegie)



Have a wonderful day and remember to play
Only 66 Days until Spring

A positive path to follow

This year I plan to follow a path to happiness, wisdom and joy.
I searched the web for words of wisdom.
I have the links embedded in the words to show where they came from.
I looked for funny ones but have not found many that are original. So I only a few to share.
As Laughter is medicine for the soul.


1. To achieve all you have to do is believe

2. Remember, you may not be able to control what life puts in your path, but you can control who you are and who you will become.

3. The man that makes no mistake, is usually the man who does nothing.

4. Wisdom is not knowing what to do now, but knowing what to do next.

5. Two can live as cheaply as one - if one doesn't eat.

6.Last night, I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky and thought to myself, "Where the heck is the ceiling?"

7. Always forgive your enemies - Nothing annoys them so much.

8. You should not confuse your career with your life.

9. “Kind words are such a blessing to the needful.” (John McLeod)
“If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything.” (Mark Twain)

10.If you light a lantern for another. It will lighten your way also.

11.It is easier to be wise for others than for ourselves. (Francois De La Rochefoucauld)
Please share your words of wisdom or funny jokes in the comments.
Have a wonderful day and remember to play

Hay Carla this was fun

Carla did a search for her name . and I thought I will try it.
So I google me:


I thought I would just find me if I searched my name. What a surprise
I was no where to be found. Humm could it be I do not like my name and go by Ernie?

#1
I found first Lily Tomlin's
As the telephone operator. from the tv show LAUGH-IN/NBC/1968-73
I love tv in those days. I did not even realize She had my name.
*2
was lily again with her phone ringie dingy.
#3
Ernestine Louise Rose (January 13, 1810 – August 4, 1892) was an Individualist Feminist, abolitionist, freethinker, She was one of the major intellectual forces behind the women's rights movement in nineteenth-century America.

I am a free thinker but this is not me. I have fought city hall and won! Changed the law in Breckenridge hills So the inspector can not enter your property at will with out a warrant. Had major influence on the Mayor loosing re election. And helped the new mayor win.
#4
was video to watch Lily
#5
Ernestine Ruben is internationally known through extensive exhibitions, books, and workshops
Most of her life has been focused on art.
I do love art. Wish I would have been an artist. love graphics. Did enough family research to write several books. But this is not me.
#5
Ernestine Anderson."A voice to make more heralded singers weep with envy.
Oh you do not want to here me sing!
#6
Ernestine L. Susmond Potowski Rose (1810-1892) Human rights include the rights of all, not only man, but woman, not only white but black; where ever there is a being called human, There rights are as full and expressive as there existence, and ought to be without limits or distinction of sex, country, or color..." - Hartford Bible Convention, Hartford, CT, 1853.
I to believe in human rights. And will stand up for some one. But alas this is not me.
#7
Ernestine Wiedenbach was an early nursing leader who is probably best known for her work in theory development and maternal infant nursing. She wrote with Dickoff and James, a classic article on theory in a practice discipline that is still used today when studying the evolution of nursing theory. Ms. Wiedenbach was born into an affluent family in 1900 and was brought up in a refined and gentile manor. Her family immigrated from Germany
Some of my ancestors are from Germany. nursing is not something I would do. I could be a veterinarian though.
#8
Ernestine Whitman Professor of Music Lawrence Conservatory faculty since 1978. She has distinguished herself as teacher, solo recitalist, professional orchestral player, and chamber musician.
I love music! would love to learn to play. but I can not even read music. :(
I made sure my girl's could. Amy was a base player and was asked to join a symphony with her high school teacher. Tessa was a viola player. And both can play a guitar.
As a kid I wanted to play a flute.
# 9
Musice tracks to here Noir Désir » Tracks Ernestine (4:58)
I listened to the track top right of page, Wow bold moving music. Sang by a man
#10
was again Lilly so I moved on to
Grouch v. Ernestine could this be me?
No they are comparing grouchy operators to lilly.
on page 11 #6
No I am not a grouchy phone operator. But I could be a bit grouchy at times..

Ernestine Ulmer quote “Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first.”

Oh this could be me. Or my twin. I will eat desert first !


I found a link to names. you have to click on this link. 1960 was when the name had it's lowest and last rating. Go figure. That was the year I was born. I was the last to receive the name.

The girl's name Ernestine \e-rnesti-ne, er-nes-tine\ is pronounced er-ness-TEEN. It is of Old German origin, and its meaning is "serious; battle to the death". Feminine form of Ernest.

Ernestine has 7 variant forms: Earnestine, Erna, Ernaline, Ernesha, Ernesta, Ernestina and Ernestyna.

Conclusion:
All these people are smart, funny, talented, They stand up for there beliefs. Help others.
So Maybe the name dose fit me.
But I would rather be called Erna I could live with that.
As it is when I say Ernie is my name. People look real hard to see if I am a guy in transition.

This was fun maybe you should search your name and see if it fits you.

Problems solved

This is the outfit chosen to bring Jozlyn Rose home from the hospital. I know it should be a cute little dress. But none to be found. It is cold here and all new born dresses are for spring or Christmas.
Amy will go in at 5:00 am tomorrow Wednesday Jan 7, 2008
to be induced into labor.

Love of native art

Ok Gail,
you have my thoughts running about again. I can not go window shopping we are in a small town with a small w-mart store. I can not wake up my wanting side. But I can make my creative side wake up. I started thinking about all my passions things I love. My old home was full of native American art and South west flair. I am eclectic. I do not need things to match. I just need to love them. I went looking for some thing to hang up. As I am not going to unpack till we move. All my treasures and art is packed in the shed. or closet or sold or maybe even thrown away. Who knows what I did at the time 3 years ago I packed and moved 2 times. 1 time to sell the house I loved 2 to move here to this house that is a payed off rehab. still needing to be finished. I went looking to find one thing . Yes it is a sand painting. My Uncle in Arizona made frames for other ones he and my Aunt Betty gave me. They are done by a famous Indian painter, Name I do not remember. I will have to ask. But this is what I found. A clock to hang in the kitchen. I now am motivated to get out the paint and paint that wall. I will let you know when that happens. lol

I love native American and south west Items.

This one was found in St. Louis at a yard sale.

If the sky is blue

If the sky is blue
I know what to do.

If the sky is Grey
I know I can not go play

If the sky is gold
Treasures will unfold.

If the sky is red
I am not going to bed

if the sky is full of color
it fulfills like no another.

Rain bows
keep you on your toes

And the wind really blows.
Can you believe I wrote a poem.
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These photos contains the only eagle I saw yesterday. I need more than a 300 mm lens . For this one.

Something to do

I have been doing puzzles the last few weeks. This started out hard for me as some were impossible to do. Now I can do the hard ones they take 20 +/- minuets. The best time yet is around 11 min. But this is helping me a bit with regaining some scene of I can do this. As I try to not give up on things that once were easy. Also I can neglect the fact the house need to be cleaned. LOL
This helps with winter blues a bit too.

Happy New year to all

Wishing you all a happy, healthy, And blessed New Year.

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My 2009 Bucket list

Live every day as if it were the only day.
Continue to find happiness and joy in life.
Continue to let every one know I love them.
Work on regaining my health.
Learn how to get Jerry to want to too.
Read or reread the positive energy books I bough in 2008 to help me.
Capture all the great things I see and do on film.
Keep learning so I can restore my brain so maybe I can remember how to spell with out spell check.
And hope I can regain or keep memories alive in my mind.
Get to move in the farm we bought on Aug 26, 2009
Find a friend for my husband.
See the ocean or Golf of Mexico near Houston, Texas.
Be more crafty or creative.
Have a great garden and harvest.
Learn to keep seed alive till transplant time.
Share my knowledge to help others in need.
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I am so thankful that 2008 was my best year yet. It has ended on a sad note though. I have lost 5 people since.
One on Christmas eve, 3 the day after and My eldest Aunt Nor in Nevada yesterday. We were on the way home from my Eldest Sister in laws funeral, When my Mom called to tell me of her passing. I have fond memories of her. In August of this year we spent time at My Uncles funeral talking of the past. To find my Moms oldest brother was the love of her life. She is my step dads sister. And such a kind heart she had. We lived with her when we moved to Mo. I was 4 years old.
I will miss her. I hope and pray there will be no more for a while.

Now there are only 5 of 10 kids left.

True Happiness

This year I almost missed Christmas.
I had the flue and slept though most days my energy was gone and body hurt all over. I canceled Christmas at my house. And asked Amy to do it there. It was a miracle that I was able to go to her house for a few hours of simple fun. This is what Christmas is all about. Not expensive gifts. But fun and family love. A simple jester a home made gift . Kind words and big smiles.

Playing with the kids.

Ok PaPa who should I get MOM, Dad or Grammy?

And don't forget the big kiss.

The other 2 post below include the rest of our day.
This is my last post till New years.
May you all be blessed with happiness, joy and love.